The downward spiral…………….

It has been three day since I found out that my uncles are crack heads, maybe Meth addicts.(boy isn’t that a glorious title to hold?) In case you can’t tell, I am over feeling sorry for them. My one Uncle (Joe) is checking into a rehab center today, the other Uncle (Randy) the one I always wanted to be like, he is just on a downward spiral. I think that the next time I see him….he’ll be in a casket. I spoke with my mom yesterday, she was telling me how he was acting towards her when she asked him about his problem. He was cursing and actually made her nervous. If you knew him you’d know that cursing at people wasn’t something he ever really did. We now know he had been using various drugs for nearly a year now. He had not been paying his mortgage, (my Aunt almost lost their home due to this!) he has stolen money from his kids, written checks to those check cashing places that wouldn’t clear, hell he hasn’t paid a bill in nearly a year! And this is all from a guy pulling probably 100k a year or more! Is it possible to spend that much money on drugs? I am just having a hard time believing someone can spend that kind of money on drugs, maybe I’m just too naïve. How much does Meth cost anyways? I suppose I am asking the wrong questions. My mom said I ought to contact my Aunt, to talk. I want to really badly, but what do I say? Does she want everyone knowing what has happened to their lives? Does she know that I know? And what about the kids? I want her to know I am on her side, by that I mean that I am worried about her and my cousins, and that I want the best for them. I am kind of coming to the conclusion that I have no uncle Randy any more. I hope that my Aunt will still want some kind of relationship with the rest of the family, she is a sweet woman. What do you think? How do I go about opening a line of communication with her? I just want to let her know that I am thinking of her and the kids, and that I love them all and want things to get better for them. I’m so mad right now.


I’ll write more when I CALM DOWN……..